Wednesday, December 31, 2008

maybe i should maintain this blog. maybe you'll understand. maybe. hey. after so much we've been through. this is not how it should end. really.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

to you my angel.

I love you. I never ever wanted to hurt you. I'm sorry. I want things to be back to the way the were. I believe in US. I cry my heart out. Just for you. You have embedded yourself within me. I cannot live properly without you. If you go. You take the sun away. You take the meaning of living away. It's just so hard to live without you. You make my heart beat faster everytime I gaze upon that glorious face of yours. Or listen to your melodic voice pushing away all the stress and problems away. For you. I'm willing to die. You make my world complete. I just don't know. I swear I will be by you forever. Trust me for once. I love you. Always did, always will.
to you. you two face backstabing fishballed eyed loser.

If you even have access to this blog. Please. GET A LIFE U DESPERATE PIECE OF SHIT. GET YOUR OWN GIRLFRIEND. NOT TRY TO CHAT UP UR USED TO BE FRIEND'S GIRLFRIEND. Do you really need to stoop so low to get some female attention? OMFG. STEAL THE NUMBER FROM THE GUY'S HANDPHONE WHEN HE LEAVES IT BEHIND. REALLY. IT'S NOT LIKE HE DID NOT TELL YOU TO STOP. _|_ U.
to you. whos name starts with J

I really do want to scold you with my arsenal of swearwords but I think it is rather uncouth of me to do so. But to put it simply. Live up to you name u P(_)$$Y. Tempting to add a few F(_)CK Yo(_)s too. So wad. SUE ME. Why must you leave her alone you say? Well it so happens her ex's name happens to be J so. Yeah. I'm insecure. So. Please remember your promise. I fail to see how you can reassure me. I didn't hear about you sending her friend home. Although apparently, you do it to "everyone". Seeing movies alone. wow. Having meals alone. wow. sending her home. wow. why don't you just tell me to fuck off? I won't go down without a fight though. trust me _|_ . I tried to avoid conflicts. But yeah. Now I cannot be bothered. SO FUCK OFF BEFORE I FUCK YOU.
The friends.

Thanks for your concern. I know I may not be the best bf around. But I try my best to make her happy. To tell u the truth. It really pisses me off when she says that you all are more important than me. But wadcanisaeanymore? I am a pacifist and so I do not go into conflicts with anyone unless necessary. Therefore, I have treated everyone I know with a very carefree attitude. Thus I do not command much respect from you all. I do not blame anyone. Nor do I wish for more respect. It is just this matter has gone out of hand. I really love her and I hope you understand that I have been hurt by her before. And so I am not very secure. I do not really know what is going on. As I said wadcanisaeanymore? As a person who has been through some incidents. I will not trust anyone with personal information anymore. It is shocking to be betrayed at such a tender age. At least it proves to me what human nature can be like. I do not know why. Please treat this as a little comment, but try to understand. I do not have much contact with you all. It is fortunate to be in contact with such a wonderful girl. She is and will be a lasting part of our lives.